The new beginnings...
07.07.2022
It´s time for new beginning.
I know that I wasn´t to active in here lately, so let me tell you what is going on in my live right now.
In the couple of last month I did come across a few things that changed me and by that I dicided that I need a fresh start for me, at least in some way. When I last talk to you how my life was, a lot happend. I was sick for a long and I thounght that after Christmas break I will go back to school and it will be okay. Well, with the new year, going back to school didn´t happend because I was still sick and because of that I postpound a third year on the concervatory. I had more doctors visites and I was taking care of myself. The fact that I stoped dancing at all helped for a bit but I needed some movement so I was working on my body. I had a hard time I won´t lie, but I got better. With spring I went for a trip and that helped me a lot also with the change of the weather. I celebrated my 19th birthday with people I love and I started doing more things that I like and love to do and I started getting better even more. We were going to hockey games that we really like and they are a way of relaxing for me. I did started to teach dancing a group of kids and I was also suppling for others when they weren´t able to teach. I was spending my time with my family and friends at that time and that halped me get thru a lot. I also find a new alternative for my school and in June I did got aceppted to a new school, so from september I no longer will be a student of the dance concervatory. It was hard to make this decision, but my health wasn´t good enough for me to go back. I started working more. To my teaching I started to work on the reception. That build up some new part of me and I fell like it changed me in one way. I also got a tattoo and I started to taking care of my body in other way then before and I got okay with me and dancing. Few days back I did say goodbye to someone special that was in my life for while and that made me think even more about how I feel with myself and how I feel in my life. With another goodbye that we said a few days back too, to my second home, I decided that I need one other change to do in my life before I can close this big chapter. I cut my hair. This wasn´t something small like last time, It was big and for me it was a way to let go and move on. I did start a few new chapters in my life and I did closed some too. So with this I wanted to leave the ones that are closed and go forward with the new ones. I have a lot new things coming right now and I want to be ready for 100% for them I want to be here in this moment and not in the past. I want to go back to writing, but I want to write in a bit new way. I want to build my body more then I do right now. I want to be albe to actually do everything for my diet. I want to give everything to things that I love to do like drawing, reading, doing sports, being with my family and much more. I will go back to dancing, not just with my students, but I will start taking lessons and I want to go back to competing again. I want to give everything to teaching my studens and show them how much dancing and working with there body can mean to them and how much they can do and solve with it. I will be teaching even move from september so I really can´t wait for that. This summer I have a dance camps and some other work so I want to start building a way for me to be able to move even more with my live and maybe I will do some other big steps in my life soon...
With all of this I want to take you guys with me. I want to share this new part of my life with you and maybe it will help you to start yours or maybe you are already in one, so we can all go thru this together. Let´s all learn from ours and others mistakes and let´s all try to get a little bit better every day. Not every day is sunny but even the rain must stops one day and we will be looking for the sunny days togerther and we will learn from the rainy ones.
So now darlings have a great summer, read lots of books at the beach, have a beautiful time with all people that you love and do what´s the best for your body and for yourself, because we sometimes forgets that we need to take care of us too.
As always with all my love I will see you next time, so thank you for reading and until next time goodbye.
With love,
your Lucy